A part of him is ebbing away slowly. So slowly that it might have faded away already and he does not realize it yet.
He loved her, more than she thought he does.
He had envisioned a life where he would live with her through the rest of his life. He had lived away from her for far too many years.
A life where he could take care of her and pamper her like he always wished to, but never could.
A life where he could make her feel like a queen. Like how he felt like a prince when he was a child.
He wanted to love her much more than she ever loved him.
His intentions were right and they still are. But it broke his heart to know that she did not want any of it. Not until he agreed to her conservative demands.
He was sadly flabbergasted to perceive that his love is not her priority. It is the so called 'respect from the society full of hypocrites' that mattered to her more.
He tried to talk her through it and he had hopes that his love, yeah the true love for her, will prevail. After all she was his mother. But alas, that was not meant to be. A judgmental set of siblings did not help his cause.
Seriously!? Yeah, that's how they chose to be.
"But why?", he wondered.
He never judged them for their choices. He unapologetically supported them for any choice they might have made.
'Siblings are ones you can fall back on when the rest of the world turns against you'.
'You are not afraid of being judged for your choices when it comes to your family'.
The more he deliberated over the whole episode the more he was crestfallen.
He does not see a way back from here. He is deeply hurt and a part of his is dying. He feels the void day in and day out. He knows he will have to live through it. He just does not know how and why!
He is unable to comprehend why he has to pay such a price for making a choice in his life.
Making a choice for himself is his basic right.
When people make choices, specially a difficult one, they know the people who love them unconditionally will support them.
Those who do not! Well to hell with them! YO!
He thought he was strong enough to live through this pain.
Well guess what!
He cannot. His mind has snapped into parts. He has blurry and confusing visions in his brain.
One day he gets up and he knows he will live through it. He will set everything alright somehow.
And the next day, he knows he cannot. He knows the life would not be same again.
He cannot live without his mother and her love.
Year 1994, at the tender age of 10, is when he was sent away from his mother and family. Twenty four years is a big time to have lived without their love.
And now when the time is ripe to get back together with them, it kills him to know that he does not have their love. Not if he makes choices for himself!
Damn life!
He loved her, more than she thought he does.
He had envisioned a life where he would live with her through the rest of his life. He had lived away from her for far too many years.
A life where he could take care of her and pamper her like he always wished to, but never could.
A life where he could make her feel like a queen. Like how he felt like a prince when he was a child.
He wanted to love her much more than she ever loved him.
His intentions were right and they still are. But it broke his heart to know that she did not want any of it. Not until he agreed to her conservative demands.
He was sadly flabbergasted to perceive that his love is not her priority. It is the so called 'respect from the society full of hypocrites' that mattered to her more.
He tried to talk her through it and he had hopes that his love, yeah the true love for her, will prevail. After all she was his mother. But alas, that was not meant to be. A judgmental set of siblings did not help his cause.
Seriously!? Yeah, that's how they chose to be.
"But why?", he wondered.
He never judged them for their choices. He unapologetically supported them for any choice they might have made.
'Siblings are ones you can fall back on when the rest of the world turns against you'.
'You are not afraid of being judged for your choices when it comes to your family'.
The more he deliberated over the whole episode the more he was crestfallen.
He does not see a way back from here. He is deeply hurt and a part of his is dying. He feels the void day in and day out. He knows he will have to live through it. He just does not know how and why!
He is unable to comprehend why he has to pay such a price for making a choice in his life.
Making a choice for himself is his basic right.
When people make choices, specially a difficult one, they know the people who love them unconditionally will support them.
Those who do not! Well to hell with them! YO!
He thought he was strong enough to live through this pain.
Well guess what!
He cannot. His mind has snapped into parts. He has blurry and confusing visions in his brain.
One day he gets up and he knows he will live through it. He will set everything alright somehow.
And the next day, he knows he cannot. He knows the life would not be same again.
He cannot live without his mother and her love.
Year 1994, at the tender age of 10, is when he was sent away from his mother and family. Twenty four years is a big time to have lived without their love.
And now when the time is ripe to get back together with them, it kills him to know that he does not have their love. Not if he makes choices for himself!
Damn life!
