Confessions... all over again!

I still remember the night I confessed my love to you.
I can still feel the same jitters.
Talking to you is like listening to your favorite song on a long lonely highway in a rainy weather.
I wish our moment of confession never ends, exactly the way we wish the drive never comes to an end.

You control my mind like nothing else ever did.

You give me a peculiar kind of a high I have never felt before,
I don't feel cold, I don't feel warm, I just feel you around me, and it's very comforting,
You make me feel so good, so so good,
that the only thing that seems unjustified to me now is the distance between us.

I fall for you every time we meet.
I feel like I am falling in love every time I hear you,
and it sounds crazy but it is true that my heart skips a beat every time I get a text from you;
hoping there would be thousand more things you want to say to me,
hoping you would never stop till we meet.

Because when you say things, I feel on top of the world.
Because when you say things, my life suddenly turns upside down and I see nothing but beautiful.
Because when you say things, I know you mean it.
Because when you mean it, I feel like I am living a life. 

I want to confess a few things all over again today,
because that is how I feel everyday- falling in love with you every freaking moment. 

Confession:

As I write, I am thinking of you and falling in love all over again,

I don't know whether it's right or not,

All I know is, that, it is there, and I cannot keep it within, all by myself,

I have lost the number of times I have tried resisting you and these feelings inside me,

But eventually I lost to myself,

I lost to you,

I lost to us.

I am in love with you,

Madly and deeply,

I see you and I just want to touch you,

I see you and I feel like taking you in my arms to feel you and your breath.
And when I breath your breath, I want to own them and I want you to own mine.

I dint believe in the word magic till you happened to me.
I dint understand why people kept talking about some three magical words till you uttered them for me.
Wanna hear you say the three words over and over again - It truly feels magical. 
Wanna be with you forever -  I feel like I own the world when you are by my side.

Because I now know, that is where I was always meant to be.
Because that is where my heart and soul lie.
Because it is you who holds all the keys to my heart.
Because every beat this heart beats is for you.

Yes I am in love with you, now, and forever!
Take it or break it.
If you take it, I promise you will never regret.
If you break it, I promise I will confess it all over again!

True Luvv...!

Perhaps each of us have moments in our lives when it feels like the time slows down, the air stops blowing and everything around us comes to a standstill, making that moment as one we will never forget. 

There are people who experience one or two or may be three such experiences in their life and then there are many who are probably waiting for one such moment. And here I am, probably the luckiest of them all, having experienced such moments every time we see each other.

I experienced my first such moment when I looked into your eyes and lost myself at the way they were looking into me. 

I experienced another after that when we hugged each other for the first time. The kind of rush I still feel when we hug. 

And I have been experiencing one such moment almost everyday since then except for the days when we dint see each other. The latest one being just yesterday when you held on to my left arm while taking a small walk.

It is in such moments I know that you are the right person for me, the right person made for me, someone who has become my reason to live in no time. 

I realize that I want to make you happy, to see your smile every day, to make you laugh everyday.

I want to be a part of you and want you to be a part of mine. And thinking back on all the times I have smiled in my heart, I know that you are the one with whom I would want to spent my whole life with.

True love (that I have found in someone as wonderful as you) I have always believed is never about only me. I know for sure, it is about the person you love (in my case that's definitely you), your wants, your needs, your hopes and your dreams. 

I want to fulfill all of them without an iota of doubt. Because I know my happiness lies in you, in dreaming your dreams, and in achieving your hopes.

What I want to do now, everyday, for the rest of my life, till the power above us decides to dust me down, is to show you an outpour of love. I want to lay aside your pain and any sort of anguish anyone might cause you and want to lovingly take you in my arms and sooth your soul.

You think I am doing it all for you! Aren't you?

No I am not. I am doing it for myself. 

Because the person I am in love with (you know who I am talking about here), will make sure that the more I truly love that person, the more love I receive from her.

Are you for real?

You are perfect in every sense!

An amazing mixture of a bit of everything one can have,

Beauty, innocence, talent, boldness, sweet, caring and I can go on and on.

You mesmerize me every time I see you.

I have to confess something. I still feel little nervous when I meet you.

I feel lost as to what should I do. 
I feel like loving you.

I feel like lifting you in my arms.

I feel like looking at you through your eyes.

Feel like hearing you.
Love the way you moan when we make love.

So my mind is full of things to do, and it runs in thousand different directions, 
wanting to do all thousand things at a time.

And that's when I just smile and start trying to calm myself down,

You are LITERALLY all over me, in every bit of me!

I feel super powerful when I am with you,

And yet I feel nervous when I see you,

Feel like surrendering myself to you.

My heart is beating harder with each word I write here,

And I realize I am breathing abnormally high as I write.

It is like I just climbed some hundred stairs up a tall building.

I wish I could find time enough to say all this when you are in front of me.
But I choose to convey through writing. 

Because when you are there in front of me, with no one else around us, 

I lose my senses,

And the thousand things I mentioned start running through my mind over and over again.

I go craZy, and half my energy goes into just making myself normal.

It takes sometime for the reality to sink in.

I am like, Are you really happening to me,

And are you really for real!?
I mean do you really exist in reality or am I dreaming again?

Then when you touch me, I know, you are mine, for real.
And my thoughts, things I want to do with you, take over me yet again.

Only If I could fly...

It is one of those days, when you are not around and my heart, along with me, feels lonely...

I have been so busy thinking of you, that I have missed expressing a lot of things to you...

It does not matter how hard I have tried it to be up and running, The life becomes dull without having you around.
The only thought that keeps me high is that every morning When I get up, I know you are away a day lesser than yesterday...
I know I sound like a crazy when I say things like that, but thats what I am... Crazy... For you...

There is kind of intensity I feel within me when I think of  you,
There is an urge to hold u, to tell you how you control me and my thoughts from end to end,
The intensity is getting waste in the space without you!

There is strong urge now to be someone who can fly, a superman may be,
Yeah, last probably in my childhood I felt like flying,
but now I do for some other reasons and the reason is You.

I want to fly,
To reach where you are,
To sit next to you,
To look into those beautiful eyes I have been longing to dive into...

To show you the intensity I feel within,
To share the kind of passion we probably hold for each other,
To hold your hand,
To hold you close,
To hug you tight,
Not letting the air pass,
To save some oxygen by breathing you!

To show you how much I have missed you,
To show you how this love has grown to enormous proportions when you were away,
To feel you and all that you have felt for me probably,
To do a lot more than what I can write in here... Only if I could fly...

As I know I cannot, I just wait for the moment to be with you,
I don't know when, I don't know how, but I know, the moment will come,
Because for whatever I have for you, is for real and rare,
Because not everyone is fortunate enough to feel this passion!

May be I know...

There is a strange loneliness in this crowd... I dont know why...
Or may be I know...
The sunlight is not warm enough today... I dont know why...
Or may be I know...
The sunrise was not as beautiful today, as it was wen we were together... I dont know why...
Or may be I know...
Hawaa beh rahi hai, lekin wo mujhe chhoo nahi rahi... I dont know why...
Or may be I know...
The heart is beating harder today... I dont know why...
Or may be I know...
Neend mujhe aa nahi rahi kucch dino se... I dont know why...
Or may be I know...
Ghadi ki tik tik sun rahaa hun mein, lekin samay tham sa gaya hai... I dont know why...
Or may be I know...
Ki ho nahi tum pass mere... Tau sab kucch bematlab sa hai...
Ki ho nahi tum pass mere... Tau sab kucch khaali sa hai...
Ki miloge mujhse tum kabhi... Aisa mera dil kahta hai... I dont know why...
Or may be I know...
Ki jab miloge tum mujhe... Tab shayad kah paaunga haal-e-dil tumse...
Ki jab pyaar hai itna, tau kyun ho nahi tum pass mere...
Ki pataa hai mujhe, jab milunga tumse, hoth kucch kah na paayein... I dont know why...
Or may be I know...
Ki shayad mein lipat jaaun tumse, tab shayad ho ehsaas tumhe...
Ki shayad tumhe mein durr kabhi fir jaane na dun...
Ki shayad Tum Bin mein hun hi nahi, aur agar hun toh fir adhoora sa hun...
Ki shayad... I dont know... I dont Know why...!
Or may be I know...!

Aaj ki Subah..!

Aaj ki subah mein kucch kami si hai...
Hawa mein kucch nami si hai...
Kisi se baat hui nahi hai...
Hamein uski kami khali si hai...
Aaj ki subah mein kucch kami si hai...

Door hai wo, par uske pass hone ki zarurat si hai...
Dikhe nahi wo kaafi dino se, ab unhe dekhne ki taras si hai...
Baat ho jaati hai unse kabhi kabhi,
lekin ab jab baat hui nahi kal tau baatein unse kucch karni jaroori si hai...
Aaj ki subah mein kucch kami si hai...

Aankhein gadaaye baithe hain hum,
ki koi ek jhalak de jaaye apni,
unki aankhon mein doobna hai hamein,
Mann mein aisi besabri si hai...

Ped phool murjhaane lagein hain,
Abhi baarish honi si hai...
unse mile bina ek minute bhi,
ye zindagi sooni si hai...

Raat ko wo aaye sapno mein,
aur dheere se kaano mein kucch kah ke chal diye,
unhe bataa de koi ki haqeeqat mein na sahi,
lekin sapno mein tau unhe thoda aur rukne ki jaroorat si hai...
Na ruke wo tau, hum kahenge yehi ki,
Aaj ki subah mein kucch kami si hai...!

Twenty minutes... Meet me if you can!

It was a beautiful night. I was all by myself, standing on the rooftop and gazing at a near by lake. The water in it, with the reflection of hundreds of stars and the full moon was breathtaking. The breeze around was making me feel nostalgic. There were some dark clouds far away in the sky. It might rain today. 

How I wish she was with me!

Suddenly the silence around me was broken, with the song "You and I will be together till the end of time..." piercing through the air. Bothered by the interruption, I reached into my pocket and grabbed my phone.

"Hello?".

"Yeah. Hello. Reach the coffee shop at MG road in next twenty minutes", a familiar commanding voice summoned me over the call, "I have precisely an hour free with me. Meet me if you can!".

It must have been around ten o'clock that Wednesday night.

The things had changed, with a few exceptions, drastically in ten years, since she had broken away from the city. It felt like a smooth eternity. The city itself was not the same. It was now a overpopulated, underfunded, and lesser green city. With the time I had moved on too, not completely though. A part of me was still left behind in the past, as it is, as it was, for her.

"I will be there in lesser time than that", I told her. I was numb for a minute, not entirely convinced if it was really her. We had not been in touch for last couple of years, after she asked me to relinquish all my hopes of her coming back.

Is she really back? 

After all these years, that part of me was still dying to seize every possible second to see her. I did not know how would I manage to reach there in time with the city's infamous traffic. But a 'part of me' knew, I had to. It felt like it was my only chance to meet her.

Certainly she cannot be back forever. God could not have been that kind to bestow me with that.

I did not care to change, I had no time to look into the mirror before I jumped in to my car seat and zoomed off to get my life back. I was nervous within. My precarious thoughts were killing me every second.

Will we be the same, as we were, with each other?

I had lost the count of times I had met her in my imaginations. In the comfort of my fancy world, we had always met like two persons, insanely in love with each other, would.

Will it be awkward for her or for me or for both of us? Will I be able to drown myself into those gorgeous sea colored eyes yet again? Will the love, I held for her for so long, explode? Even, if it does, will she care at all?

The car was cruising at 100 Mph.  It was like a god's gift on the city roads. I was half way through in five minutes. I was sure of making it in time. I was excited. I had goosebumps all over me. My mind was going through a jittery ride. Everything, we had between us, was flashing hard in my mind, like it happened just yesterday. The memories were pellucidly clear.

What is it that she might be thinking of right now? Does she remember anything that we had between us? She could not have forgotten the things we shared then. It was too beautiful and too intense for her to just forget it.

The last chocolate cake, our daily favorite, we had at the coffee shop still had its sweet bitterness on my tongue. I never had it again after she left.

"How could I ever have it without her?"

It was a part of the love we shared. It gave us so many hours, so many heavenly hours, of looking into each other's eyes, with the urge of becoming one forever. It used to be there, nicely lying down on the table between us, patiently waiting for hours for us to have a bite of it, to finish it eventually, while we used to be lost in each other. The place, I visited a couple of times later, was still the same, like an epitome of  'our' love.

Will I get a chance to have that cake today?

I reached the coffee shop in fifteen minutes. It was not crowded, I assumed, with barely four cars parked in the parking area. I thanked god for keeping the people of this city back in their homes. I had a trembling feeling within, with a sense of anxiety and excitement. I had no idea how would it be when I would finally see her.

I rang her up after parking my car. She did not answer my call. I called her up again, but to my dismal, there was no response. I tried a couple of times, only to disappoint myself more. I was confounded, till I received a message from her.

"Sorry, had to leave. Some other time may be".

It felt like some one had stabbed me.

":(", I replied, because I had no words left with me. I was shattered. It was not a matter of life and death I thought. Then why this disappointment? Why did I, for sometime, feel like not living anymore? It was so unfair of me. I should have been accustomed to not seeing her by then.

But it was still pinching me hard. I stood there for few minutes, waiting for some magic to happen. It could not have been so bad, I thought. Not even five minutes in ten years!?

I trudged back to my car with my head down, my thoughts ridiculing me for every single minute I thought of the time with her while driving down there.

"You still drive the same car?", Suddenly a hand clamped down on my shoulder from the back of my driving seat. I turned back, with my heart in my mouth, out of fear, only to see my angel smiling at me.

I had my mouth wide open, in awe, without a word.

"Know me?", she asked.

Silence is all I had from my side.

"Alright, you look sad. Care for a chocolate cake?" she smiled with a piece of cake in her hands.
As I moved forward to have a bite of it, a drop of water fell over me.

It took me a few seconds to realize I was still standing on the rooftop. It had started raining.

Damn you, Imaginations! 

Tête-à-tête, in my heart!

"How do you manage, sleeping just 4-5 hours everyday? In fact how are you even alive?", she asked me in disbelief, oblivious of the fact that, people sleep in need to slacken their mind and body, and I make up for it by being in love with her.

"Loving you, is what I need more than the norm 8 hours of sleep", I told.

"You are such a bollywood buff, fully-filmi!!", she chuckled.

She was concealing something beneath her radiant smiling face. Somewhere down in her mind, even she knew, what I said was partly true. She realized I loved her like mad. But she dint want to concede it, for, she had a notion, she could not handle so much of it and she could not match up to it.

She told me someday, she cannot love me back as much as I do, completely oblivious of the fact, that, even half of it could make my life more beautiful.

"A feeling 'You are around' is enough for me" I said.
I knew, in my mind, I was hiding a thing when I said that. I did need her to love me immensely. But knowing that she cannot, for reasons known best to her, forced me to lie to her.

She smiled and looked into my eyes, as if telling me, I know you are lying, you idiot!. 

Few seconds later, she seized my hands and said, "I am always around you! Am I not?", and leaned her head over my shoulders, with the wind pushing her hair into my eyes", completely oblivious of the fact that, I want to love her more every time she did that.

"You smell so right", I thought and said "Your hair is hurting my eyes".

"And I thought you find them sexy!" she said, as if she could read my mind, and came closer to me, with my nose breathing hers, completely oblivious of the fact that, it would be impossible for me not to think of kissing her.

I had my eyes closed, to not let go of the sweetest moment of my life, and there she was, now standing in front of me, patting my head, as if waking me up.

"You were about to kiss me, you idiot!", she said with a mischievous smile.

"Yeah I want to kiss you, now and forever!", I thought. I got up and put my arms around her.

"Was I? I din't realize, I fell asleep for a minute darling.", I said, almost trying to tease her. But she was probably "as mad as I was"  that day.

"Oh really! I thought you were in a mood to love me", she said, completely oblivious of the fact that, I am always loving her, in my mind.

"I don't need to have a mood to love you babe, I love you unconditionally, mood no bar, time no bar, place no bar!", I smiled.

"You filmi buff, say you love me", she hugged me tight, put a peck on my cheek, and hid her face in to my chest.

"I love you, I love you and I love you like mad" I yelled in my mind. 

"I already said that shonaa", I responded.

"Say it again for me", her breath was now echoing in my chest, as if she wanted to listen to what my heart beats said, completely oblivious of the fact that, it beat for her.

"What do you think 'my heart beats' are telling you?" I asked her as if it was just obvious.

"Only I can hear 'your heart beats' idiot, and so only I know all that they want to say. But I want this air around us to know that you love me. So, say it for me once more".

"Ahaa...! who is being fully-filmi now?", I asked with a smile, this time completely oblivious of the fact that she really meant to hear that from me, for reasons again best known to her.

"Thuddd..." she hit me hard with fake anger and a genuine smile.

"Ok baby, I love you!", I screamed, as loud as I could.
The valley, we were sitting next to, did the rest, by reverberating my words twice.

"Now tell me you love me too...".

"You know it, I don't!" she smiled shyly and sealed my lips with hers.

"You say it best, when you say nothing at all...", my ears buzzed.
(No, there was no music in the background. There was no filmy breeze blowing around us. There were no clouds and no chances of rain.) 

What we had were, two passionate hearts, and a moment to let our love thrive upon!

Tryst with Gokarna...!

What do you do when you are surrounded with people who pounce on every chance to travel? You just decide on a place, pack your bags and get your bums on the wheels.
With the year 2010 coming to an end and everyone getting into a holiday mood, we set ourselves up for a trip to Gokarna.

The best part about such trips is the time that precedes it, when everyone is planning on the matters such as how to travel, where to stay and what all activities to do. Six different persons and you have six different opinions. We wanted to drive all the way to Gokarna on a bike and a car. We were just a little sceptical about the chances of rain. But then we kept our fears aside and boiled down to the option of driving down.
The car i10 had already proved a point by travelling down to Hyderabad covering 1200 kms over 2 days, and the avenger was raring to prove its mettle after a successful ride to Yercaud (200 kms from Bangalore).

We planned to leave Bangalore by 6 PM. One of us lost the house key with the bags inside the house, and Dhoom-pichak-dhoom fame Mr. Anurag almost lost his bike key at the famous ginger tea shop in BTM, and that all marked the beginning of our trip, and lead us to actually leave by 7.30 PM. I set myself on the car driver seat and Manish Y was the co-pilot and with Amit playing the role of DJ to perfection yet again, clubbed with the jokes cracked by Manish P, aka Santa Lallllaa, the man for all seasons, we were all set for a rocking drive. Anurag was avenging, with Abhijeet being the pillion rider, and I tell you the fun they were having riding the bike was no lesser than the guys in the car.

We cruised via NICE road to hit the Tumkur road, and halted at Kamath for dinner. We crossed Tumkur, 70 KMs from Bangalore by 21.45, and took a diversion towards Shimoga on NH-206. This road definitely needs a special mention here. NH-206, a "fame" (read "Shame") in the name of National Highway. Even the roads in my village would be better than this. But than probably that was among the highlights of this trip.

When the clock read 23:50, we were in the middle of a town on the way and we halted for getting the fuel refilled. After all, Kamath dint serve the food for i10 and avenger. With clock hitting 00:00, it was the beginning of Christmas day (2010) and  it was time for Abhijeet to get into maddening mood. We wished each other with our santa caps on and Abhijeet clicked some pictures in a way only best known to him. We started off again from there after people shuffling the seats. M&M got onto the bike and Anurg-Abhijeet got into the car.

We kept driving the whole night like mad, checking the routes on the google-map every now and then. It was a savior. There were some beautiful, scary, broken roads on the way. We took t-breaks at regular intervals and finally I handed over the car to Anurag at 4.30 AM when I could not keep my eyes open even after splashing cold water every 5 mins. It was in the middle of the ghat section. Anurag as if just waiting to get a chance, drove the car like it was NH7 to hyd. Every t-break we stopped for (once per hour), the bike pillion riders had a story to tell, on how they conquered their fear as Manish Yadav kept avenging madly (and blindly) on the "beautiful roads"!

We entered Gokarna with the very first sun ray hitting the backwaters on the way. The scenes there were amazing. The fatigue that had creep ed in after a drive of 11 hours just went off in a blink. It was as if sun was waiting for us to enter the roads of Gokarna. We clicked a few pics with the rising sun on the backwaters shores and decided to head on to the beach first. We bypassed our hotel (Abhijeet booked in advance) to reach the beach. The last 3-4 kms to the beach is a hill road and we got down at every point we could get a glimpse of the beach. It was as if, reaching the beach, was our life's only motive. But then, for a moment it was. It was the only aim of our lives after a maddening drive of 11 hours. I almost ran i10 over Abhijeet's right leg during this last 10 mins of drive.

Nevertheless, we had breakfast and tea at one of the shacks on the beach. We had some fun before wisely deciding to go and check into the hotel. It was a dormitory room - perfect for the bachelors. It was time to crash down in the bed as per the need of the hour.

People started getting up late in the afternoon one after the other. I was the last one to open my eyes. With one eye open, I saw Manish Y meditating, Manish P and Abhijeet hogging on to the pakodas they had ordered, Anurag roaming aroung in the room with the towel around his shoulders and Amit already searching for better routes to go back to Bangalore the next day.

We started getting ready with everyone sighing for a body massage. We made a queue with everyone massaging the person next to him and to be fair in the end, the person first in the queue returned the favors to person last in the queue. Half pants/3/4ths, t-shirts, chappals, goggles and hats. We were all set to have a tryst with Gokarna beach. The famous OM beach (famous for its shape as 'Om', a holy hindi word).

We enjoyed some water sports and played cricket before taking a dip into the "holy" water of Om beach. And by the time sun started closing down its office, we took our chances to pose in groups and pictures were clicked in the beautiful sunset on the beach. We then had some light snacks before getting back to our room.

We then got ready for another innings on the beach. We took one of the hotel bed sheets along with us to sit on the beach all night long. It was almost a full moon that day. We sat nicely right in the middle of the Om beach all the night. Singing every song from our database and having our dinner side by side. Some foreigners deserve a special mention here, who came down to us with a song request. "Munni Badnaam hui...". No wonder Indian music is going global. ;);)

It was time to head back and get some sleep before a long journey back home the next morning. The next morning we did leave, but not before taking a speed boat ride to another beach. It was as beautiful as the OM beach, only lesser crowded. Anurag took the liberty of getting into the sea once again, thanks to the restaurant, it took like ages for them to serve us. They were more interested in what the foreigner breed ordered. Of course 1 dollar is heavier than 1 rupee.

We started our journey back from Gokarna to Bangalore. We were not done with the place but we had to. I realized that I had caught fever, and that was not a good sign as I was supposed to drive back the car. Probably Gokarna did not want us to leave. Nevertheless, I took a medicine and rested for sometime before finally leaving after feeling a lot better. Amit was ready with his maps. We took a different route while returning back, hoping to catch a better road. He did his homework pretty well. But then that's the best you can do with Indian roads. The roads were definitely better, but then the best part of the journey was yet to come.

After driving 50 kms into some jungle road after crossing a town, we saw the road was broken. They were constructing a bridge over a small water body. Someone there told us to follow a tractor which was taking a diversion into the jungle. It was a driving test for me and a test for i10 to show its mettle. We both came up with flying covers though. And only the people who were there in the trip can understand the kind of unplanned adventure we went through. Once we crossed this 200 metres part, it was just a matter of few more hours before we reached back to Bangalore at 2.30 PM. All safe and sound. Hats off guys who rode avenger. People around me still have their mouth wide open when I tell them about it.

A journey, probably the best of them all, came to an end, only to give us a topic of conversation whenever we get together. Everyone wants to repeat this one trip, without realizing that probably awesome journeys are rare to come by. We all were lucky to be a part of this trip. I personally assumed it as my bachelor's party trip later when we could not plan anything just before I got married. Many of us went to the same place again, and did have fun, but probably not enough to match the kinda trip we had.
I might be going over board when I say this, but we probably would be telling about this trip to our kids 25 years from now, and I am sure they would like to repeat the same fate for themselves.

I want you to know it!

A kid asked me, how big is this sky? And I could not define it. "Verrrryyy Bigg..." I told her and she kept asking "How Big...!" and all I could do was stretch my arms as much I could and still could not convince her.
You cannot define a few things around you. You cannot measure it. You just know its there, in plenty.

You know where I am taking you with this. Isn't it? Yeah, like the sky, I cannot define the luvv I hold inside, for u. And yet, I want to convey it. I know I cannot show you how much it is, I know I cannot put a number to it, but yet, I want to show it. I want you to know it.

I know these words will fall short. I know this life will not be enough. In fact, I know even life more than one will fall short. I know, but I want you to know it.

There has to be something, I am yet to come across, that could express exactly how I feel about you. There has to be something out there, at a place not known to me, which might be noting down every time I think of you. And I am sure, it must be tired of noting that down every second. Because that's how much I think of you. I know it, and I want you to know it.

When we love someone, we probably find a place to fit in the person in everything we do, in everything we see, in everything we touch. I do that. I make you the reason of my living. I walk with you in every step I walk. I breathe you in every breath of mine. My mind knows its thinking about you, but I want you to know it.

There must be thousand ways I might have tried showing my luvv to you already and yet, i want to find thousand more ways of doing it. I do not want a pause, I do not want to stop, all I want is to love you. The love inside me loves someone madly, and that someone is you. I convey this to you today, the way I probably did many times before, because I want you to know it.

There is a connection, a strong one at that. There has to be one, to explain why I miss you when you are not around, but still my soul does not feel your absence. It probably meets yours somewhere. This keeps my heart beating. My heart knows it might have stopped otherwise, but I want you to know it.

Now that you know it, I want to know you love me too. Because that's all I want from you. Nothing more n nothing less. I probably will not be able to handle if its "more" and I will not settle for anything "less".
And if you agree to love me, do not take the effort of thinking and writing, the way I chose to.
Three words, a hug and a kiss, everyday, is all it will take for me to know, that you do.